Whoa! What? Am I writing a blog post?! Indeed I am. Over the last year or two a lot has changed. Namely, I had another baby (beautiful Miles), Juliette has grown into a delightful and sometimes devastatingly difficult 4.5 year old, and most recently I signed up for my first EVER half marathon(!!!).
More on family and other domestic matters later, today I want to write about running...
Last weekend, Jason and I ran the Winnipeg Police Half Marathon as a two-person relay. We did pretty well, in my opinion. We finished in a time of 2:09:34, which isn't terribly fast but considering Jason was a last minute stand in for my dear pal Pam who was ill and I, myself, was still recovering from a two-week illness, I'd say we did alright. :)
I was so pumped up from the experience, I registered to run the half marathon coming up on June 19!
I have been talking about running a half marathon for more years than I care to admit and for some reason or another, I've always found an excuse not to do it. Too busy. Pregnant. New baby. Untrained. And so on. And mind you, while the pregnancy and new baby excuses are totally legitimate, the others are not so much. Too busy? Not really. No matter how busy I am, I can always make a choice to find time to run. I am fortunate to have a supportive husband, friends and family who can help me with babysitting duties so that I can pound out a few miles. Soon I will be back at work from my maternity leave and rather than go out for lunch, I always have the choice to go for a run (I mean, I just happen to work in the city's most beautiful park!). So busy-ness, which has always been my number one reason, is actually not a valid reason at all. Untrained? Refer to what I just wrote busy-ness.
This morning, while pondering exactly why I haven't taken this step before, it finally dawned on me: FEAR. I have been afraid. Not necessarily afraid that I couldn't do it but afraid that I couldn't do it WELL. I have this messed up thinking that goes way, WAY back that if I can't do something perfectly then I shouldn't do it at all. And since I am a runner of the slow and somewhat steady variety, I didn't think I would be able to run it as fast as some of my friends who have been running half marathons for years. And OF COURSE I won't! They've been doing it for YEARS! I only just started running two or three years ago, and I've taken lots of running "breaks" in that time! They should be faster than me. That's obvious!
But my ego tells me that if I'm not going to do it as well as my peers, then why bother? And how lame is that? Is that the role model I want to be for my children? Um, no. Do I only want to accomplish a goal so that my friends and family can be impressed by how well I do it? Um, no. Am I running this for me or my ego? Um, me.
So here goes nothing! I have a time goal set, which is not very fast, but I think it's achievable. I'll post training updates on the blog as I go. Wish me luck!
Are there any other runners out there training? Feel free to post any helpful training tips and tools in the comments, or just share your experience, I'd love to hear :)